I didn’t go to school yesterday because I obviously came home a tad too late last night after a few days of working, I barely had more than 24 hours of sleep in the last three days.. I accidentally overslept. I really wanted to go to school. But I didn’t so I spent the day with my sis and Herman. We went to Parkway.. had lunch and played pool. Harj came and then I had to leave for work, in which I was late for about an hour. Nothing new.

And we ended work early because there was nothing to do; so we closed the shop and I went home. I think it has been ages since I last talked to my mum. And when I got home, I told her I wanted to drive and so my dad, my mum and me took a little trip to Downtown East and had very late dinner and dessert. I miss spending quality time with them. And I was really upset about what she told me today because after all. I’m still her daughter and I will always love her no matter how much time and time again she does that little nagging thing over and over.

Anyway, I don’t feel like continuing my entry. So.. there goes..

Cloud Over My Head.

I’m still up and I have school tomorrow. My grades.. they are gonna be hurt big time.

I’m not sure why I’m so hungry but I saw the Meltz that my sis bought from my mum (even though I absolutely HATE the taste of BBQ sauce!) and half eaten chicken in the kitchen so.. I’m devouring them right about now.

I realised I haven’t been updating. Maybe because my thoughts are rather much too precious to even be publicized. You know.. with the kepo people around; I’m being specific here.. you’d know who you are – trying really hard to know what I’m up to; and then say things which is rather unnecessary. Let me do you this favour – I’m saving you from the sins of not even having anything to talk about. Works better.

SCHOOL TOMORROW.

And I need to quit soon – because I love my mum more than I love the job. Actually I love the job but I don’t want her to disown me so, I’ll quit.

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Aunts.

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Sullen.

Been spending a lot of time with my aunt; who is probably going to ship her ass off to Emirates in a few weeks time. A month maybe. And I’m so darn sad. I don’t want her to go but me not wanting her to go is being selfish – but she said she’ll reconsider it and if she stays.. then, I think I will be nice to her la. Hehe. For a start, I’d stop calling you bimbo.

And Abg Mahfudz has been really nice la – he let me drive his car; which is not a rare thing. He doesn’t just allow anyone to and I’m so happy when he allowed me to and for the first time, no one was saying anything to me or scolding me about the way I drive. Huuummmm.

AND AND AND.. my whole week is packed – with work and sleep and more work.

Grrrr.

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Everything.

It’s the hardest thing
I’ll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don’t love you..

It has been a lazy Saturday, with me waking up close to noon, had breakfast, watch Accepted with my sister, slept some more and.. going to get more DVD in a while. The last two days hasn’t been much of a roller-coaster ride. It was just simple, filled with a whole lot of crying on my part and trying hard to be strong. Someone should shoot me. Hurhur.

I love this pretend game. I’ve been doing it all my life and I realised that I’m just getting better at it, everyday.

So anyhow, yesterday was Iman’s birthday chalet and then I met all my guy cousins and now I know why I am the way I am. I grew up with them and two of them are serving NS already, I know. How long back was it when nothing was on our mind, when we met, all we talked about is girls and nonsensical parents stuff? Ok, we still do talk about girls except that now, we blow smoke in each other’s face and we talk about sexual interventions! Haha.

Anyway, work tomorrow and another day of lazing in bed after work I guess. Now, I practically have no life.

Today is a lazy day. Saturday has always been.. Hmmmppphhh.

I miss a certain someone who smells of Miracle on first and second date. Grrrr.

Being Sisters.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed
But I’ve got it all here in my heart
I want you to know,
I know the truth,
Of course I know it
I would be nothing without you.

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I’m sorry that I haven’t been a good sister. And I miss you too. I miss telling you things, being beside you and arguing with you. Things are hard for me right now and I know that they are for you too. But as much as I’m finding my own strength to get by, I hope you will too. You know that I’m always a call away if even when I’m not around.

Because ultimately, we are sisters no matter what and I will always be there for you until the end of time.

I love you.