Back Off.

I’m sick and tired of having to run and hide every truth.

Ok, so what if I do the things I do? Why does it bother you guys so much ah? I’m old enough to know – to do what I do, to know the consequences and to face up to it.

Yeah, don’t involve them. I’m sure they have enough on their mind and I have my dues to pay. Like my uncle said, when I eat, you pay?  No right? I’m not trying to be rude but just leave me alone. Please.

So yeah, not close to me, so just stay away. Keep your distance and I would know how to keep mine.

Stop keeping tabs on me. Its not helping.

This is life la ah.

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Skyy.

I love working where I’m working now. There’s always something new to learn. We had a function yesterday and it was so damn cool to work with Abg Halim because he’s so laid back and I think we’re all crazy – I just wanted to remember with what happened to the banana fritters with ice-cream and how I happily.. dumdidum for Jun and Cindy (:

Nothing much this days – things are ok.  Gf complaining I’m always not around because of the moolah. SO HOW BABY? You want to pay for everything is it? Heh?

That’s all. Alot of things to come. Looking forward to it everyday.

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Hello Love.

Under the street light, we both sat. Drenched in the rain. Tears streaming down – but its all okay. I’ve got you.

Now I know what its like to have you. I’m for real now love. Oh, it means so much to have your comforting arms around me. It is. It makes me stronger like that and to the sweet vanilla scent of your neck, hmmmm. Came along with your smile. All good things come in small packages. And.. and.. you’re getting chubbier sweet. Sttoopp with the diet thing when you’re going to swear off it 5 mins later and its great that you know that it doesn’t matter; I really like you goon.

So hello there, back at you, sweet.

And thank you for this – it reminds me of Valentines day, breaking glasses.

“I could have made my move earlier, baby
Would have danced for you by the tarmac reservoirs tonight
And summoned angels to watch over us as we debate about love and lust;
If not for your lips.. its the tangle of rope-burns you left on my chest..”

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Pointless.

You know that feeling when you have alot of friends, your time is filled up, your life is complete but you feel empty and worthless inside?

Yes, dealing and crying doesn’t help. I hate feeling this way. It drives me crazy and bring me to the edge where all I wanna do is jjjuuuuuuuuuuusssssssssssssttttttttttttttttt goooooooooooooooooooooo!

I want to have one on my own – with you behind and we watch the world go by in the bright morning light; to a place, a place only we both know.

I’m wincing in pain – each time I think about it. Grrrrrrrrrrrr. My entry is getting pointless by day and I start work at 4 today. Aku suka last min schedule tukar.

Something to be excited about – my bill is only fifty plus this month! WHICH MAKES ME A HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY PERSON. Hmmmm. What a nice feeling! I think the fact that at a point of time whereby my gf is hp-less is the best. Haha. Hilangkan handphone lagi, please (:

Ok, I still feel lousy. Like crap – but whaddaheelll.

Darkness.

“You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real.. “

I feel like crying still. But putting up a strong front seems to be the easiest. I don’t want to come off weak but I feel so lousy. I feel like crap. Why am I pretending to be this strong when I’m granted to feel? Trust me, this time round, its not my emofied feelings.

I’m so tired. I slept only for two hours and I can’t seem to sleep. The images won’t go away. And I know its going to stay for a while.

Dear, I wish you knew. I wish you knew how much I’m hurting right now – and I can’t deal with anything . To hide and keep running. It must have been some crazy thing but this is where I stand now. I don’t know where to go.

Would you understand?

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Forgo.

I forgot how its like to get hurt, to feel that a part of you being ripped away, a part of you searching for courage and strength to walk away.

I forgot how its like to love; love whole-heartedly without holding back.

I forgot how its like to thank someone and be honest about it because most of the times, it was formality sake.

I forgot how its like to feel happy, feel the butterflies in my tummy when I meet a special someone and continue wanting to spend every single waking moment with her.

And there’s a lot more things forgotten. Along the way.

But I guess in life, you never stopped learning.