Death.

Thank you God for making me the person that I am today. Thank you for always guiding me to see the path I wish to embark on. Thank you for giving me the hope and the faith for a better day of tomorrow and thank you for opening me up to whole new horizon out there.

Thank you God for the love you’ve showered me with. Thank you for giving me the best parents I’ve could ever asked for. Thank you for giving me a sister, a sister that has always been there for me through rain and shine and thank you for blessing me with a bunch of good friends; that I can call my own, a family, that I can never ask for more.

I would never ask for anything more now. Stop the pain and just take the hurt away.

From you I came and to you, I will return.

Blow.

I can’t take my eyes off of you.

Hello. Life hasn’t been cruel. Hasn’t been kind either. I am still me and life still goes on.

Hello. Maybe things are much better now but I have no idea where I am heading to.

Hello. I hate the way I feel most days because I ain’t sure what to do.

And hello love. You got me hooked on you.

AND I am falling away with you. Catch me now. Won’t you?

I am blogging in circles and someday we’d meet again.

Bad Mistakes.

Simpang was none other than fun. We caught soccer over there with me doodling away. Hurhur. I just love spending time with the girls.

Yesterday, I met Tatia, Shar, Mel, Shikin and the girl and we had dinner at Habibie. How long ago was it when we did that? Lepak-ed under the block with Shikin singing ‘All I Want For Christmas Is You’. I swear it was hilarious. Anyhow, while we were there, we made plans to watch soccer together this Saturday. Us, all. Being patriotic is one thing but the other is the company.. I know its going to be worthwhile.

Woke up at almost 9 today and was contemplating whether to go to school or not to, ended up going but not really. I slacked with Nurul and Shar under the blk, had breakfast and headed over to Jurong. Still here, much better than just now because I took three flu medicine and slept my whole afternoon away.

Ok, can’t wait to see my bayyyybbeeehh tonight.

I should have turned myself around
I shoudn’t have tried to stand my ground..

Sinister.

I love this MAPLEK MONSTER!

Pixels.

Haha. Nurul need to come to school more often before we all go mad and have no one to sway the bridge with her WEIGHT. Ok, inside joke.

Anyway.. nothing much I want to update. Feeling once again, rather sad. I don’t know why. EMOFIED nak mampus.

Hmm. Some things are better left unsaid – and maybe it wouldn’t hurt so much in the long run.

I spend yesterday evening with this MELplek.

We had Fish&Co. Sumpah satisfying. Talked about things.. those things, close to our hearts. Aku sumpah miss kau SOUNTEX.

Another note, an interview later. Not putting too much hope in it.. but its probably a start to many good things if possible.

Three more weeks of school. All I have to do is endure my guts out and then yes.. I’m done with year one baybeh! Sumpah.. I can’t wait.

Nine weeks of holidays. Hmm. Oh, I felt a slight pain in my chest last night. Maybe I’m not as strong as I seem to be, but hey fellas, I’m okay.

Keep it cool and I’m on the roll.

I need someone to make me smile, a smile so wide. Someone have been doing that lately. Thank you for being so great eh ((:

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren’t coming out right
I’m tripping on words,
You got my head spinning
I don’t know where to go from here..

Sumpah entry ni banyak gambar!

Lost.

I wanna spend time till it ends
I wanna fall in you again
Like we did when we first met
I wanna fall with you againYou can’t turn away
The past is said and done
I need us to carry on..

Cheesy I know. Howells. Too bad.

Desirous.

I am a wreck despite all that I try to conceal. I have no more tears to cry. I have given everything. And she has taken everything. Can you hear my soul cry, baby? It’s desirous. For it’s a yearning like no other, a need in my careless heart and a saviour to my dream.

And the pseudo hope from you. A little that I was wishing to pursue in your name just so I could call you my own.

Tonight I bleed in search of the lost love, somewhere in between dreaming and awake. It is the only place I know and the only place I’ve been.

Once, I believed in the smile, the laughter and the tears. I believed the touch, the kiss and the scent. I believed in the hopes and the dreams we made. And I believed that I loved.

I can’t wait until I see the morning light. Nights are depressing without you by my side.

And the more I know, the more I hurt. Anything is better than having my heart filled with hurt and my eyes filled with tears.

Now I’m empty.

Ps: Won’t you come and fix me now?

Everything.

It’s the hardest thing
I’ll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending i don’t love you..

It has been a lazy Saturday, with me waking up close to noon, had breakfast, watch Accepted with my sister, slept some more and.. going to get more DVD in a while. The last two days hasn’t been much of a roller-coaster ride. It was just simple, filled with a whole lot of crying on my part and trying hard to be strong. Someone should shoot me. Hurhur.

I love this pretend game. I’ve been doing it all my life and I realised that I’m just getting better at it, everyday.

So anyhow, yesterday was Iman’s birthday chalet and then I met all my guy cousins and now I know why I am the way I am. I grew up with them and two of them are serving NS already, I know. How long back was it when nothing was on our mind, when we met, all we talked about is girls and nonsensical parents stuff? Ok, we still do talk about girls except that now, we blow smoke in each other’s face and we talk about sexual interventions! Haha.

Anyway, work tomorrow and another day of lazing in bed after work I guess. Now, I practically have no life.

Today is a lazy day. Saturday has always been.. Hmmmppphhh.

I miss a certain someone who smells of Miracle on first and second date. Grrrr.

WIth Or Without You.

It’s tearing up my heart when I’m with you
But when we are apart I feel it too
And no matter what I do I feel the pain
With or without you..Baby I don’t understand
Just why we can’t be lovers?
Things are getting out of hand
Trying too much but baby we can win

If you want me girl let me know
I am down on my knees
I can’t take it anymore

Baby don’t misunderstand
What I’m trying to tell ya
In the corner of my mind
Baby it feels like we’re running out of time

Tearing up my heart and soul
We’re apart I feel it too
And no matter what I do
I feel the pain with or without you

And no matter what I do
I feel the pain with or without you.

Walking Away.

it’s such a shame.. we’re worlds apart.

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I know that right now I’m taking the easy way out of just walking away but I feel like this is the best way to go.

I miss you. I really do.