2007

I never had someone; I know I could love for the rest of my life.

These are the special few who have kept me sane. Thank you for being by my side. I am glad that despite everything, we’ve turned out to be a close knit group. I don’t think two years back, I can sit with Mel at the staircase, and talk about people that matter to us. I don’t think Tatia and me can be where we are now despite the endless arguments of little things that trigger our well-being; its because of you, I’m still alive.. Babe, how long have that been? To whom I’ve carelessly been in love with and Sharain; honestly, what would I do without you? I’m glad you’re happy and I want you to be that way, always and always. And Isyah, I’ve seen you in and out of love to whom that made your world twirl a thousand wonder, to psycho childish brats and to who sweep you off your feet at the slightest message. Oh, what about those late nights, those cooking feast we made to make ourselves feel much better on bad days? And my sister, whom always been the one to take care of me, drunk, not drunk, crying, not crying and making sure I’m always sane when it comes to Harj. Now whom did I leave out? Oh yes, Shaz, how do I forget your mak-nenek moments even though now, we are not where we used to be but I’m so darn proud of you. Darn proud of the things you are doing. This may be a little too early loves, but .. I wish for a good 2007 for us. To whom that matters to me.. every little thing, to love, life and future endeavours.

Baby, what do I do without you? Countless of times, I bend, I snapped, I broke.. myself apart to keep myself sane when I’m by your side. The little things you do, that make me hurt like no other, such a feeling of detestation and my revulsion symptoms of you, you and no one else but you. While I feel like there’s so much I can do, or trying to do to win your heart once more; I feel like my efforts are futile. I’m sorry I made you cry – time and again, but have you ever thought about how I felt each and every time you put me down, in front of my friends, in front of strangers we barely know and new acquaintances? I swallow all the pain I can; when I see your pictures with Khai. Does that make me a coward not to admit, yes, I’m hurt? I think what hurts most is you lying. Not your hands entwined against hers, not her asking you to stay by her side. I am only your average girl next door, I try my best when it comes to you – what matters is I tried. I tried giving and giving and giving.. I never took. Yes, how we came to this point, it is because of me. But it took me this much to know that I do love you, and I always will and I wish a good year ahead for you; be it with me or without me, I know you’re going to do good and my sincere wishes for you. You’re my everlasting love.

And you.. you’re my esoteric wonderland. You take my mind off the slightest pain I am going through and your smile – its ecstasy. I wish upon a star that your smile makes my wishes come true. And to everything that you are, the person that you claim to be, the difficult person that is, I am glad, to have met someone like you in my life.

Haha. 2007 not so near la. But neat, here’s a toast to the favourite people in my life.. wishing you a great 2007.

AKU SUMPAH TER-EARLY.